PRELIMINARY TO A STABLE CHRISTMAS

by joannagilmanhyde

Dec 19, The Yarmouth psych unit NOON

I have been moved

from The Therapeutic Quiet Room

to a bed of My Own

wrapped in bronze & silver filigree

spread with cotton linens

I have just ingested 5mg. of Olanzapine —

part of a new, high, regime

but I am compliant here —

minding My Own business

& not that of THE WORLD

 

Dec 19, Yarmouth psych unit no watch

EYE Love M(EYE) Heart

It is M(EYE) heart

It makes Me happy

when I feel it

beating

EYE miss My Cat Astro

I miss hugging Him & cuddling Him

I love Him

Dec 20th 2015 Psych unit

I arrived bare-foot

in black negligee

& bullet-proof vest

to a place where Mental Illness

is a fact

when I have been trying with My Heart

to have it

not be so

Dec 20th 2015 The psych Unit 10:28am

EYE am dressed

in robes

of hospital care

& am on My bed

of quiet.

I have a crying friend

who has been a comfort to me

as I have been to her

& we have cried all morning

Dec. 20th 2015 Psych Unit 1:54pm

EYE sit through

these long & lonely hours

hoping the phone will ring

for me

knowing I will sob & cry

to whomever loves

me.

Dec. 20th The Yarmouth Psych Unit 3:05pm

MY SILVER WALL

I stand aloft My Silver Wall

with my light upon the bricks

I see & stand & cry in all

my grief — finally finally

set free

I see the silver through

my tears & know how far

I’ve come

Dec 21, 2015 psych unit 4:07am

EYE AM IN M(EYE) PRECIOUS TIME

The veil is off

The veil of The Second Coming

is down

my heart is exposed

& it is a beautiful heart

Dec 22, 2015 My Room in The Psych Ward 10:00pm

LITTLE STRIPED SILVER FISH

Today in My Room

of Bronze & Silver

I was visited by a bug

Who looked to be trying to hide

I did not squish him

but let him roam free

allowed to say hello

to the next patient

after me.

Dec 23, 2015 My Room @ the psych ward 8:55am

A SILENT PRAYER

God, I speak my voice to you

& know you listen to every word

grant me the security

of MIND

that I will see My Destiny

& Live It

to The Fullest

I love You,

Joanna