September 23rd, 2026
The Tomato-coloured Couch
7:30 am
It would seem
each year
there’s a youngster
of Gully’s —
I’m starting 2 lose track —
one year it was Heckle & Speckle
then it was Junior —
now it’s an anonymous
bleating brown one
(as they all are)
& Gully regurgitates food
for him
& I worry
I’m not feeding them
adequately —
butt My Deck
cannot be a feeding station
for every Tom, Dick
& Harry
of The Gull World
September 19th, 2026
The Hawk Queen Bed
7:00 am
My Father’s Birthday —
Francois Michael Louis Tonetti Hyde
named after The Sculptor
He could never live up 2 —
My Father could play the cello
& sing
& why is it that we must
always list Our Talents?
He married My Mother
(They were Childhood Playmates)
January 30th, 1960
& took His First Child,
Me,
2 Gabon, Africa
where My Brother was conceived
& where My Mother
said She had the worst year
of Her Life.
When I was a teenager
I asked Mom,
“What was Dad’s job in Africa?”
She answered,
“He was teaching Africans
how 2 drive tractors.”
In 1974 My Father went bankrupt
on His dairy farm
in upstate New York
& moved His 2nd Family
2 Tehran, Iran
leaving Me
2 miss My Stepsister Thea
more than I missed My Father —
He left Tehran under evacuation
& wound up
in Riyadh, Saudi Arabia
working in “The Shipping Business”
for 25 years —
retiring 2 His 2nd Wife’s rundown farmhouse
in Vermont
where He woke up at 4:00 am
2 drive patients 2 hospitals
for casual employment.
Did Eye love My Father?
I guess I did,
butt My Mother tried
2 turn Me against Him
& took Me 2 court w Her
when She was suing Him
for child support
& had His Early American Furniture
sequestrated:
Big Brown pieces
She told Me more than once
She never did like 2 oil
w Lemon Oil
(& She disliked ironing
His white shirts for work)
so why did She marry Him?
I asked Her that 2
& She answered:
“I married Your Father
for 3 Reasons:
2 hold onto My Childhood,
because I loved His Family,
& I couldn’t stand the thought
of anyone else marrying Him.”
September 18th, 2026
The Hawk Slipper Chair
7:11 am
The Headiness of 2 days ago
has subsided
& in its place
(if there is a place)
is My Command 2 M(eye) Self
& 2 The World:
“EMBELLISH —
EMBLAZON”
(I need a new pen)
September 16th, 2026
The Tomato-coloured Couch
4:30 pm
We all have our hauntings
& Mine is Maria —
yet Today
that stab in My Heart (cervix & brain)
has been overshadowed
over-glowed
by M(eye) Longest Exchange (so far)
w The Little Man
w whom Eye have what I would say
is a “Good Rapore”
September 15th, 2026
The Hawk Corner Room
9:30 am
Last night I stood
giving birth 2 a baby
clothed in what I presume
were swaddling clothes
(or mummy wrappings?)
I had 2 uncover
him or her
layer by layer
& then he/she
got lost —
later I was on a solitary road trip
around unfamiliar, made-up places
here in lovely Nova Scotia
driving the slate-blue Ford
Dr Fraudster bought me
without consulting me,
& suddenly found myself
stuck in a cloud of heavy white mist —
it wasn’t fog —
I could see nothing
except a slight opening
2 my upper right
revealing what I guessed
2 be Western Sky
& I felt it was time enough
I had spent
here in lovely Nova Scotia
September 13th, 2026
The Hawk Deck
9:00 am
Gully, Molly & Ozzy —
how did I obtain
3 pets of 2 syllables
ending in Why?
September 6th, 2026
The Hawk Utility Room
5:26 am
Dr Blair was a Fucker —
He fucked Me
w all His Might —
(which wasn’t much)
on into The Night
of Our Darkest Hour
when Eye got livid
@ His Falsehood —
He never saw Me
for My Worth —
instead He used Me
2 clean & cook
(which Eye didn’t mind doing)
butt He ignored My Capacity
for Artistic Genius —
& when Eye asked Him
if Eye was THAT
He said “No.”
September 6th, 2026
The Hawk Kitchen Outpost
4:15 am
The Crescent Moon
is really the only astrological body
Eye pay any heed 2 —
how It’s caught
in Its celestial travels
around Our Earth —
or is Earth
around The Moon?
September 4th, 2026
The Hawk Slipper Chair
8:30 am
Endlessly
She picks & picks
up Threaded Galaxies
off fields of fabric skies
off layers of cosmic flooring
between thumb & forefinger
2 be deposited
Forever
into Black Holes
of sinks, garbage cans, toilets
September 2nd, 2026
The Hawk Queen Bed
5:26 am
Eye had You that extra week
so that You would grow
so that You could be killed —
that’s how much Your Father
didn’t want You.
But I wanted You — badly enough
to make up a Blue Devil
in Your Place —
“The Impetuous Child”
Who would linger forever
as The Male Counterpart.
