joannagilmanhyde

"Good Morning, World!"

Month: December, 2015

LEAVING TODAY

The Hawk Kitchen 6:55am

EYE saw the negative imprint

of a darkened galaxy

splattered on My Bread Board

when I went to make the coffee

I swept it in the sink

& wept for My Children

inwardly

AVA’S BIRTHDAY

My Journal for statements

Tonight in My Bath

of necessity

I took out the purple

galaxies folding down around Me

& laid them on the edge

of The Universe

for safe-keeping

POLITICAL PILL

The Hawk Exercise Room 9:57am

M(EYE) Pill

is M(EYE) Power

prescribed by My Tall

Psychiatrist

— I don’t want to mess

with Him —

EYE take It twice a day

@ 9:11

& It kills

Me

ENTRANCED

The Hawk Beach 11:03am

EYE sat in that

Silver Sun

with The Beach spread

to My Back —

I’d turned an ankle

when looking up

to a flock of birds

gutting the wires

& taking off —

EYE followed Their Cloud

undulating

among the rocks

like a school

of Silver Fish

& when They passed

overhead

I straightened up

to watch

MERRY CHRISTMAS

X — Miss Morning, The Hawk Guzzle 11:57am

EYE have walked to the ends

of The Earth —

well Canada anyway —

& found not

a pot of gold but

that of Silver & Coal —

Coal Black like

My Onyx Pen —

My Black Jesus underwear

My Painting on My Basement Floor

& The Flock of Crows

accompanying Me

along The Beach

where there’s a rock

I was intending to sit on

but the sand has shifted

so now The Guzzle

surrounds My Seat

& I can only look

at Its barnacles to get

My Bearings

& return along the liquid silver

of the waves

PRELIMINARY TO A STABLE CHRISTMAS

Dec 19, The Yarmouth psych unit NOON

I have been moved

from The Therapeutic Quiet Room

to a bed of My Own

wrapped in bronze & silver filigree

spread with cotton linens

I have just ingested 5mg. of Olanzapine —

part of a new, high, regime

but I am compliant here —

minding My Own business

& not that of THE WORLD

 

Dec 19, Yarmouth psych unit no watch

EYE Love M(EYE) Heart

It is M(EYE) heart

It makes Me happy

when I feel it

beating

EYE miss My Cat Astro

I miss hugging Him & cuddling Him

I love Him

Dec 20th 2015 Psych unit

I arrived bare-foot

in black negligee

& bullet-proof vest

to a place where Mental Illness

is a fact

when I have been trying with My Heart

to have it

not be so

Dec 20th 2015 The psych Unit 10:28am

EYE am dressed

in robes

of hospital care

& am on My bed

of quiet.

I have a crying friend

who has been a comfort to me

as I have been to her

& we have cried all morning

Dec. 20th 2015 Psych Unit 1:54pm

EYE sit through

these long & lonely hours

hoping the phone will ring

for me

knowing I will sob & cry

to whomever loves

me.

Dec. 20th The Yarmouth Psych Unit 3:05pm

MY SILVER WALL

I stand aloft My Silver Wall

with my light upon the bricks

I see & stand & cry in all

my grief — finally finally

set free

I see the silver through

my tears & know how far

I’ve come

Dec 21, 2015 psych unit 4:07am

EYE AM IN M(EYE) PRECIOUS TIME

The veil is off

The veil of The Second Coming

is down

my heart is exposed

& it is a beautiful heart

Dec 22, 2015 My Room in The Psych Ward 10:00pm

LITTLE STRIPED SILVER FISH

Today in My Room

of Bronze & Silver

I was visited by a bug

Who looked to be trying to hide

I did not squish him

but let him roam free

allowed to say hello

to the next patient

after me.

Dec 23, 2015 My Room @ the psych ward 8:55am

A SILENT PRAYER

God, I speak my voice to you

& know you listen to every word

grant me the security

of MIND

that I will see My Destiny

& Live It

to The Fullest

I love You,

Joanna

 

 

 

 

 

THE PROMISE OF A BEAUTIFUL SUNRISE

The Hawk Dining Room 7:20am

The Sky is clear

but for a lateral

curling of cloud

grey & slanted toward the South

along My Ocean Horizon

THE KISS OF LIFE

The Hawk Kitchen Outpost 6:55pm

EYE have decided to leave

My Fuchsia Lip Print

on The Rim of My Sacred Life Glass –

It rests

like a purple leaf above

the scripted “Life”

set in Black

& EYE drink from It

layer upon layer

3-D BLOOD BLOTCH

The Hawk Living Room 5:10pm

EYE am wearing

My REAL Black Jesus Underpants

& EYE am writing with

a still-good Birks pen cartridge:

EYE have seen

the 3-Dimensionality

of M(EYE) obliterated abortion

heart

in the middle of M(EYE) Black Star

& EYE Still See It!!

PERFECT TIMING

The Hawk Kitchen 8:30am

When I see

The Magic

on My Kitchen Clock

I stand back —

EYE take It in —

those Numbers :  2:22

or 9:11

or M(EYE) Best Friend —

10:22

Those Numbers take Me back

& fill Me Whole

with the recall

of M(EYE) most famous

Moment

22 years ago:

10:22

The Moment with M(EYE) Lover

Who accepted Me

& what EYE said

unconditionally