48-hour Sculpture
Eye have withdrawn Knife
from the centre of Black Rose:
slow-mo pulsation
Eye have withdrawn Knife
from the centre of Black Rose:
slow-mo pulsation
Eye have inserted
My 2nd Best Kitchen Knife
inside the depths of Rose
My sculpture melted —
Dance Demonstration Request:
He told Me “Curtsy”
The Hawk Kitchen Outpost 2:00pm
Yesterday You saw The Rainbow Spray
when You had never heard of It
on The Day You changed Your Name
and picked up pebbles from The Hawk Beach
to build A Kitchen Castle —
You helped Me hoist
A Golden Throne into the back
of My Brown Edge
and as We unloaded
My Future Sculpture
into the cellar
You told The Story
of how Your Mother’s Father
coming home from fishing on The Grand Banks
had seen A Mermaid
— that They really do exist —
scraping Her Long Hair
with a fish bone
The Hawk Deck 8:19am
Twelve weeks ago I took
My Last Pill of Olanzapine
and I am stable as I was meant to be
but have to deal with continued
sleep deprivation —
last night I got 61/2 hours
on 2 mgs of Ativan
which is better than the night before —
Eliza and Jon will see
My Sculpture this morning
as it sits on the kitchen counter
with Its Left Eye closed
and Its Right Eye
in Another World —
The Sun is out
and I have the freshness of September
coming into play
The Hawk Queen Bed 4:38pm
Today on 2 hrs sleep
from 2 mgs Ativan
I began the sculpted head
of My Beautiful Dark Haired Woman
Who appeared on My Right Shoulder
in Roseway Hospital
October 1993
–
She said a lullaby in My Ear —
the most melodious voice I had ever heard
and today I have swaddled a Styrofoam core
in thin slices of plasticine
hyperventilating as I went
hearing My Son’s suggestion
from yesterday’s walk on The Hawk Beach —
“Mom, why don’t You just
exhaust Your Self?”
every slice
from a red-handled knife My Brother gave Me
pushed Me on to panel the form —
My Goal was to cover it, and I did
after carving HTWH in the Styrofoam skull
resting on My Ceramic Bluenose Plate
My Keepsake from the childhood crossings
in that vessel from Bar Harbor, Maine
to Yarmouth, Nova Scotia
when I was so happy
with My Little Family
of Mother, Brother and Me
The Hawk Kitchen Outpost 8:09am
The Sky is heavy blue
with cloud —
The Sea the colour of plasticine
Rudy’s Head sits veiled in The Living Room
unseen
while He’s back in hospital
The Tomato-coloured Couch 2:47pm
While I wait for the UPS Man
My Studio/Kitchen is all ready:
I’ve got the sculpture’s foundation
in the form of a cut glass
upside-down sandwich plate
secured to a non-slip
hot-pink place mat —
My Two Sets of sculpture tools
are lined up against the splash board
I have three pounds of plasticine
to start with — to use sparingly
until My Extra Order comes —
I have the photograph
of Rudy’s Head
taped to My Tea Cupboard
& a close-up of His Eyes & Nose
attached to the tile
above My Dishwasher.
This is all to take place on the counter top
of My Dish Washer
where I will begin My Work
just as soon as the Styrofoam
Head
Arrives
NOTE: The attitude of the head is tilted up, so I plan to be
lopping off a good portion of the Styrofoam neck at a pre-determined angle.