The Tomato-coloured Couch 4:38pm
When I saw
My Shower of Silver Lights
I saw The Figure of Christ
across from Me
I saw that Christ
was enmeshed
with The Light
& I cannot
be contained
I cannot be contained
I cannot
be contained
The Hawk Kitchen Outpost 9:41am
Yesterday I was compelled to listen
to David Bowie’s
“I Am A Black Star”
EYE got creeped out
& then He
Died
The Hawk Queen Bed, January 8,11:04pm
There’s a New God
On The Block —
She’s outdone, beaten up
The Old Guy
with Her Hair, Dark
in a bun — orange blossom
at Her Ear —
She sits on My Right Shoulder
& tells Me with Her Voice So Dear:
“You Know The Meaning of Life
So You Are A Star —
So Go To Sleep”
The Hawk First Window 11:20am
I have made M(EYE) Mark
against a brilliant wall
of grey
& if You want to know
where,
I’ll tell You:
in My New Exercise Room
AND UPON
OUR UNIVERSE
My Journal for statements
Tonight in My Bath
of necessity
I took out the purple
galaxies folding down around Me
& laid them on the edge
of The Universe
for safe-keeping
X — Miss Morning, The Hawk Guzzle 11:57am
EYE have walked to the ends
of The Earth —
well Canada anyway —
& found not
a pot of gold but
that of Silver & Coal —
Coal Black like
My Onyx Pen —
My Black Jesus underwear
My Painting on My Basement Floor
& The Flock of Crows
accompanying Me
along The Beach
where there’s a rock
I was intending to sit on
but the sand has shifted
so now The Guzzle
surrounds My Seat
& I can only look
at Its barnacles to get
My Bearings
& return along the liquid silver
of the waves
Dec 19, The Yarmouth psych unit NOON
I have been moved
from The Therapeutic Quiet Room
to a bed of My Own
wrapped in bronze & silver filigree
spread with cotton linens
I have just ingested 5mg. of Olanzapine —
part of a new, high, regime
but I am compliant here —
minding My Own business
& not that of THE WORLD
—
Dec 19, Yarmouth psych unit no watch
EYE Love M(EYE) Heart
It is M(EYE) heart
It makes Me happy
when I feel it
beating
—
EYE miss My Cat Astro
I miss hugging Him & cuddling Him
I love Him
—
Dec 20th 2015 Psych unit
I arrived bare-foot
in black negligee
& bullet-proof vest
to a place where Mental Illness
is a fact
when I have been trying with My Heart
to have it
not be so
—
Dec 20th 2015 The psych Unit 10:28am
EYE am dressed
in robes
of hospital care
& am on My bed
of quiet.
I have a crying friend
who has been a comfort to me
as I have been to her
& we have cried all morning
—
Dec. 20th 2015 Psych Unit 1:54pm
EYE sit through
these long & lonely hours
hoping the phone will ring
for me
knowing I will sob & cry
to whomever loves
me.
—
Dec. 20th The Yarmouth Psych Unit 3:05pm
MY SILVER WALL
I stand aloft My Silver Wall
with my light upon the bricks
I see & stand & cry in all
my grief — finally finally
set free
I see the silver through
my tears & know how far
I’ve come
—
Dec 21, 2015 psych unit 4:07am
EYE AM IN M(EYE) PRECIOUS TIME
The veil is off
The veil of The Second Coming
is down
my heart is exposed
& it is a beautiful heart
—
Dec 22, 2015 My Room in The Psych Ward 10:00pm
LITTLE STRIPED SILVER FISH
Today in My Room
of Bronze & Silver
I was visited by a bug
Who looked to be trying to hide
I did not squish him
but let him roam free
allowed to say hello
to the next patient
after me.
—
Dec 23, 2015 My Room @ the psych ward 8:55am
A SILENT PRAYER
God, I speak my voice to you
& know you listen to every word
grant me the security
of MIND
that I will see My Destiny
& Live It
to The Fullest
I love You,
Joanna
The Hawk Kitchen Outpost 6:55pm
EYE have decided to leave
My Fuchsia Lip Print
on The Rim of My Sacred Life Glass –
It rests
like a purple leaf above
the scripted “Life”
set in Black
& EYE drink from It
layer upon layer
The Hawk Living Room 5:10pm
EYE am wearing
My REAL Black Jesus Underpants
& EYE am writing with
a still-good Birks pen cartridge:
EYE have seen
the 3-Dimensionality
of M(EYE) obliterated abortion
heart
in the middle of M(EYE) Black Star
& EYE Still See It!!
The Hawk Kitchen 8:30am
When I see
The Magic
on My Kitchen Clock
I stand back —
EYE take It in —
those Numbers : 2:22
or 9:11
or M(EYE) Best Friend —
10:22
Those Numbers take Me back
& fill Me Whole
with the recall
of M(EYE) most famous
Moment
22 years ago:
10:22
The Moment with M(EYE) Lover
Who accepted Me
& what EYE said
unconditionally
Joanna Gilman Hyde 