Joanna Gilman Hyde

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Tag: death

IN CASE OF EMERGENCY GATHER HERE

November 14th, 10:22pm

Lying in a pool of onlookers

My Eyes are closed

then open to see His Face:

“Live, Damn It, Live!”

He holds the back of My Neck

“I’m afraid I can’t —

I’m afraid –”

“Live For The Moment!”

A Siren erupts

spacing The Crowd

I get jostled onto a stretcher

but He stays with Me

I can hear His Lilting Voice

giving directions

among the alarmed barrage of questions:

Is She Alright ?

Did They Get The Shooter?

He stays in attendance

“DVD — Remember Me!”

to DVD

The Tomato-coloured Couch 1:10pm

I felt Your Little Black Heart

wrap around Me

as I traversed the rainy Sobey’s Parking Lot

My Hair Newly Cut

You grabbed My Black Bullet-proof Vest

shouting “Live, Damn It, Live”

PROSPECTIVE BUYER

The Hawk West Desk Window 8:00am

It’s Time I Said Good-Bye

to My Mother

right from where I stand Today

I will not be going out to The Island

with The Alternative Energy Tech —

My Daughter will go in My Stead —

I can rely on Eliza

as My Mother relied on Me —

I will not be going down memory lane

to The Thoreau House in the woods

built by My Mother’s Perfect Son-in-law

I will not be going There —

I will not be sweeping up dead flies

in My Mother’s Island House —

I swept the flies there alone once

when I was 18 — Eliza’s age —

to open The Place for My Mother’s arrival —

Today Eliza will be readying for a prospective buyer

& I will not be walking down to The Lower Orchard

to visit My Mother’s Limestone Squirrel

perched on Her Granite Marker —

Today I Stand in Eliza’s Corner Room upstairs

Here At The Hawk

& gaze upon The Panorama of Sun’s Rays

filtering down on My Atlantic Home

THE TOMATO-COLOURED COUCH 10:50am

Today I drove past a black cat

the size & shape of Astro

stretched out dead

on the road into Clark’s Harbour

I wondered if He was loved

as much as I love Astro

I wondered if He could have been hit

because of His Blackness

POSSESSION

The Hawk West Desk Window 12:45pm

Black Jesus visited Me in The Shower

He spoke to Me through My Womb

He told Me I am carrying Him

I am supporting Him

giving Him Life

when I eat

I am eating for Him

when I sleep

I am sleeping for Him

My Clothes are His Vestments

My Jewels

His Symbols

where I walk

He is with Me

secure

in Me

 MY BLACK JESUS

DRESSED TO KILL/MOURN

The Hawk West Desk Window 4:30pm On The Dot

Well Black Jesus is at It again

in front of Tim Horton’s

to a bevy of Young Females

smoking

She strides over to Them

& rhetorically asks:

“Hey Young Ladies —

What does It look like

smoking in front of Tim Horton’s?

— Think About It –”

“So do You have the right

to tell Us what to do —

Bitch?”

 

HALLOWEEN ASTRO

The Hawk Kitchen 6:30pm

I have My Big Black Cat Astro

Who could be targeted by Halloween pranksters

as warned by a cat-loving Secretary

Astro cannot be let out

until Cover of Darkness

and this at My Husband’s insistence

— He thinks Astro is safe —

if anything happened to My Astro

I would be inconsolably bereft

SELF ORGANIZING GALAXY

UPDATE

My Art Framer Al Delaney

former Mayor of Shelburne, Nova Scotia

called this morning

to tell Me He finished framing

My Letter from former Mayor Ed Koch

of New York City

& My Letter from former Governor Tom Kean

of New Jersey

written upon The Completion

of My Ten-thousand Square-foot Elliptical Spiral

on The Roof of The Former #5 World Trade Center

A DREAM FOR HALLOWEEN

You appeared in the doorway

of an old-fashioned water closet

temporarily housing Me

I lifted My Bandaged Right Hand

in front of You

— snapped It in place —

& You laughed

THE DEAD CHICKADEE

The Hawk Living Room 6:40pm

I wrapped The Corpse

of My Mother

in Saran Wrap

so I could see Her better

& carried Her inside the house

My House

so I could hear Her better

I refrained from putting Her

inside the freezer

& carried Her instead

to the downstairs bathroom

to partake in the ceremony

befallen all The Others

Note:  This was written on the last page of My Keith Haring Journal