What If M(eye) 1
Surviving Cat
Was M(eye) Beloved Astro —
23 Pounds of BLACKNESS —
Eye Would Be A Witch
Butt Who Would M(eye) Potions
Be For?
Eye Have Lived Alone
In This House
For 7 Years
& Now It Has A New Roof.
As The Last Screw
Went Into A Skylight
It Shattered & Rained Down
All Over M(eye) Livingroom —
Butt As The Tomato-coloured Couch
Was Moved
2 Sweep Up The Little Glass Chunks
M(eye) Black Velvet Hair Bow Was Found
By 1 of The Crew
& Was Left For Me
2 Find Anew.
The Tomato-coloured Couch
October 20, 2023
2:50 pm
Was Eye “Mentally Ill”
For 30 Years
Since M(eye) Mother Died
Sending The Shower of Silver Lights
Down On M(eye) Head
Engulfing Me
On March 31st 1993
Convincing Me
Eye Was The 2nd Coming of Christ —
Was That “Mental Illness”?
Was Eye “Mentally Ill”
2 Fall In Love w/ A Leprechaun
Who Thought Eye Was A SEER
On April Fool’s Day 1993 —
Was Eye “Mentally Ill”
During That Summer
When Eye Wanted Desperately 2 Die
Because Eye Felt Nothing
Butt Hospital Walls
& Bedding?
Was Eye “Mentally Ill”
When Eye Spoke 2 The Leprechaun
& He Embraced Me
On October 22nd 1993
& Sent Me The Telepathic Message
of Spiritual Love
During 1 Dark Night
In Yet Another Hospital —
& Was Eye “Mentally Ill”
When The Next Day
Eye Created M(eye) Self
& Had That Fight w/ God
Who Wanted Me 2 Serve Him
& Eye Refused?
Was It “Mental Illness”
2 Have The Apparition
of The Beautiful Dark Haired Woman
Appear On M(eye) Right Shoulder
2 Say The Most Melodious Words
Eye Had Ever Heard:
“YOU KNOW THE MEANING OF LIFE
AND SO YOU ARE A STAR —
SO GO TO SLEEP”
?
That Was All In 1993
30 Years Ago
& Eye Wrote The Book
About That Year
& The 2 Before It
& Up 2 1996
Which Took In The October 15th Birth
of M(eye) Beautiful Blonde Daughter
Eliza, Yes, In 1994 —
Eliza Came Out of The Death
of M(eye) Mother —
Eliza Would Not Exist
w/out The Death —
& Then Maria —
M(eye) Poor Maria —
Killed March 27 1997
The Anniversary of M(eye) Mother’s Death
The Horror of Which
Was Painted Out
Was Written Out
Was Met By Spiritual Force
On December 18 2016
Inside The Middle La Have Church
Coming Down On Me
Engulfing Me —
Was THAT “Mental Illness”??
The Hawk Kitchen Outpost
October 18 2023
finished @ 7:45 am
“Eye Search The Horizon
For The Sun
Along A Band of Cloud —
Eye Drink M(eye) Decaf
Now Having Won
& Feel That Eye Am Proud”
The Clouds Illumine
In Flaming Pink —
Eye Wait 2 See The Sun —
Is It Behind?
The Pink Is Gone
Now Tinted Gold —
Eye Wait 2 See The Spark of Sun
Surely As It Climbs —
M(eye) View Is Blocked
By Golden Cloud —
Oh There’s A Glimmer
Like An Eye
Its Rays R Reaching
Across The Sea
Into M(eye) Kitchen
For Me 2 See
2 Blink Its Incandescence – y
Why Did Eye Dream
of A Dirty White Running Bear
Scaring Me & Peter
Attacking A Moose
or A Horse
Ripping The Neck Out of It
Having 2 Be Shot
While Eye Caved Into Peter’s Arms
Huddling w/ Him
Crying Profusely?
NOTE:
Had A Dream of Hilbert
(Our Jack Russell from 1992)
& A Very Large Snake
Which Followed Us Into A House
& Eye Had 2 Capture It
w/ A Square Plastic Bag
2 Put It Outside
Where It Writhed In The Plastic
& Eye Was Afraid It Would Suffocate
Eye Am Empowered By M(eye) Past
Experiences Divine
Eye May Walk Amongst Others
Sharing The Line
of Illumination, Hallucination
It All Becomes Mine
2 Have & 2 Hold
For The Rest of M(eye) Time
The Hawk Kitchen Outpost
October 13 2023
Eye Saw A Rainbow
From Where Eye Stood
From Whence It Came
It Was M(eye) Food
The Light Was Gold
Upon M(eye) Tree
Butt Now It’s Gone
& Eye See Me
Under The Thinnest of Moons
Accompanied By 1 Sparkling Planet
& Beside The Pink Glow of Sunrise
Eye Did Feed Gully AND His Young
Who Came Eagerly For Their Bowl
of Dried Cat Food
Set Out On M(eye) open-doored Deck
The Hawk Queen Bed
October 7, 2023
2:08 am
Eye Was @ A House
In Rockland County, New York
Against The Steep Incline
Along Route 9W
For XMiss
& Someone Had Brought
Their Pet Lion
(or Lioness As It Didnt Have A Mane)
Eye Brought A Puppet —
A Kind of Hobo Marionette —
That Eye Set Up On A Tree Stump
In The Back of The House
Against The Hillside —
It Had Very Long Wires
Which The Lioness Activated
By Accident (of Course)
& Let Her Self Outside.
M(eye) Brother Howard
& Lee Keating
(Old Neighbour of Mine & Peter’s)
Arrived & Eye Was w/out Gifts.
Lee & His Longtime Wife
Were Separated In The Dream
& Were Having XMiss Separately.
Eye Was Attempting 2 Set Up
Little Ornamental Christmas Trees
Also In The Back of The House
For Lee & Howard
As Supposed Presents
While The Lioness Was Still Outside.
Howard Had The Doors Open
Throughout The House
In Order 2 Encourage
The Lioness 2 Come Back In
As Eye Said, ” If The Doors R Open
That’s The End of Hilbert –“
(Our Jack Russell From 1992)
Finally The Lioness Came Back In
& Lay Along The Threshold
of The Back Door
Whereupon There Was A Loud Knock
& Nobody Knew Who Was There
Butt Somebody Sang Out:
“DON’T STEP ON THE LION!”
& The Door Burst Open
& It Was An Electrician
Who Tripped Over The Lioness
& Dropped A Chandelier
& Broke It w/ Scattered Glass
& Eye Cried Out
“DON’T STEP ON THE GLASS!”
Thinking of The Lion’s Vulnerability.
Eye Started Cleaning Up The Glass
w/ The Electrician
(Who Was From Halifax)
Explaining 2 Him
That The Pet Lion Was Friendly
Butt Unpredictable.
There Was Also A Tall, Dark-haired Guy
Who Eye Was Romantically Interested In
Until Eye Happened 2 See His Penis
& It Was A Shrunken Knob
Much Like 1
Eye Had Been Disappointed By
Months Earlier
& Said 2 Someone
It Wasn’t Even 1 Step Above
The Inadequate Penis
of M(eye) Prior Engagement.
NOTE: Eye Had Exclaimed Before
The Lioness Had Gotten Out
That Eye Loved (Him) — The Lioness
& Felt That Eye Was Saying That
@ Least 2 Try 2 Stay Friendly w/ It.
The Funny Dream Ended w/ Me Serving
A Pork Chop 2 The Lioness
Whom Eye Felt All Along Was A He
Rather Than A She.
Joanna Gilman Hyde 