ATLANTIC
by Joanna Gilman Hyde
The Hawk Dining Room 1:50pm
Yesterday I went back
to the home of My Children’s
earliest childhood —
it stood with dry grass
recently mowed —
a stone bench I had forgotten
under the apple
where I planted myrtle
slowly spreading —
I found My Red Leather Baseball Mitt
left-handed
in an upstairs closet
full of toys
and in the hatchway to the attic
I hoisted My Shoe-less Son
now 28
one-footed upon My Clasped Hands —
He was looking for My Early Sketches
a mysterious tube
of blue-prints displaying the roof of #5 World Trade Center
We failed to find —
as He came down
He pulled the light bulb string
straining to reach it
and when He let go
the slightly-too-short string
sprung back on itself
without the light turning off
and so My Greatest First Love
had to step into My Hands
a second time
He lowered Himself finally
to a painted kitchen chair
flexing His Lumberjack Muscles
— His Right Upper Arm still scarred
from when He toddled
to a cup of too-hot herb tea
unwittingly set within Peak’s easy reach
upon Our old kitchen table
in the little wooded house His Father and I restored
to cherish
Wonderful writing. —CC
Chagall I cannot say enough how thrilled I am to have you back in My Life. Your encouraging comments really give me a boost. Have you read how I took My Self off anti-psychotic medication on June 15th? After being drugged for 23 years since the death of My Mother in 1993? I am working on an ancient art project, a resurrected 30 x 40 ft map of Canada my first husband cut up for tarps for wood piles. Its for My Project titled ” Satellite Art for Extraterrestrials — A Tribute To The Female Engineering Students Killed in The Montreal Massacre on December 6, 1989.”
Hello Joanna – Thank you so much for your kindest words. It is so wonderful to hear of your being medication-free these past months and of your latest art. I was aware of the tribute as I believe you were in early concept for that piece when I was more actively engaged up here with the blog earlier in the year. I can feel a new and different vibrant energy coming from you and your writing. It is very exciting to witness. I look forward to our continuing conversations. Best always. —CC
Thank You Chagall!! Yesterday I spent the whole sunny day in my bathing suit hosing and scrubbing one quarter? piece of the map and will do the same today with a second piece. My daughter Eliza and Her Boyfriend (Whom I really like) will be bringing Me a third even bigger and even dirtier piece sometime today. I still may not have the complete map when all the pieces are gathered, but I am determined to make something out of what is salvaged. I feel I am symbolically salvaging the last 23 years of my life and the lives of My Children I have missed. Your audience is worth so much to Me!
It sounds like an ideal way to usher out the summer of 2016. Indeed, few of us arrive at the complete map despite having gathered all of the pieces. From your writing it is apparent that your life is on a new and exciting trajectory. And thank you again for your kind comments. 🙂 Your humble fan —CC
Dearest Humble Fan: I will be thinking of You while I continue to scrub and sweep and be on the look out for a poem titled “The Story of A Map.”