LULL

by Joanna Gilman Hyde

The Tomato-coloured Couch 8:25pm

In The Mid-nineties

I lay in bed for weeks

unbathed

wanting to die

not caring for my family

— why write it here —

here where I am happy & satisfied?

because I am in a lull

& I don’t have My Two-year-old Daughter

tearing covers off Me

insisting, “Mom — get up —

Yer Starvin'”