The Hawk Kitchen 11:40am
One Day This Week
I grew into A Giant
somewhere between
Prom on Saturday
& Graduation on Thursday —
It was Wednesday
I came out of The Bathroom
Naked
& felt My Shoulders Rise
My Chest Heave
My Legs Muscle Up —
I felt My Self Grow
like Alice In Wonderland
& climbed the stairs DOWN
to go tell Hunter:
“I’m A Giant —
I’m A Giant!”
–
I’m A Giant of A Mother
I’m A Giant of A Wife
I’m A Giant of A Lover
I’m A Giant of My Life
The Hawk West Desk Window 2:22pm
I am Suspended
like a crinkled strand of aerial hair
between two points
irrelevant
&
unknown
I am In
Mid Air
knowing not
whether I will land
or Where
I will go, if
Someone
blows Me
away
The Hawk Deck 4:30pm
Twenty Years Ago
I wrote in a hospital:
“I CREATED MY SELF
BUT I GIVE GOD
THE CREDIT”
(Then I got intentionally pregnant)
Now I Say:
“I MADE UP MY DAUGHTER —
I PLANNED HER
TO BE A WOMAN WHO
CAN DO
ANYTHING
(and SHE HAS TO BE BEAUTIFUL)”
Eliza, born into water
came out
P-E-R-F-E-C-T
(& God had nothing to do with it)
The Hawk Queen Bed 7:45am
Once I Saw The Light Of God
Streaking Down Around Me
–
It Made Me Speak
“I Am The Second Coming…”
–
Now I Think
You’ve Found Me
The Tomato-coloured Couch 4:12pm
I Am Proclaiming
My Godliness
with The Hope
that Others, You
might say the same
for Yourselves:
I cannot say
“You Are God”
but I can think It
& I DO —
I think We all
are God
as The Unit Of Humanity
made up of Individual Minds
Eliza’s Corner Room 2:34pm
I saw The Meaning Of Life
open out like The Brown Garment Bag
containing Eliza’s Silver Prom Dress
opening from Its Centre
to reveal The Paradoxical Joke
edged in Raspberry & Gold:
God’s Super Joke —
The Reason For Schizophrenia
The Hawk Deck 11:00am
I have turned into
a religious figure
dressed in purple robe
& sun hat
holding My mauve & gold
Journal
on My Knee
I hear the birds
a lawn mower
& write
of The Solace
I seek for Others
Who may share
My View
of The Internal God
Joanna Gilman Hyde 