I HAVE CONQUERED GOD
The Hawk Dining Room 2:54pm
Nietzsche declared God Dead
but Joanna Hyde
has swept him aside
The Tomato-coloured Couch 3:00pm
I stood in a corner
beside The Photograph
of Dr Schweitzer holding Me
& chanted out for The World to witness
“I Stand For Silver”
“I Stand For Silver”
“I Stand — For Silver”
I chanted & chanted
until I could chant
no more
& became The Petulant Child —
now there lies
a cat
where My Feet were planted
The Hawk Dining Room 8:00am
“Everything’s going
all to Hell
very fast*”
yet I have
salmon pink clouds
turning to gold
*Dr W Hunter Blair
There is no such “thing” as “mental illness.” There is no true illness which can be said to be entirely “mental” unless it is derived from an organic source such as a brain tumour. There are no physical attributes in the human body which can point to this description. There is no pre-determining test for “mental illness.” The psychiatric diagnosis used to determine the supposed state of “mental illness” is opinion-based at best, and most often this opinion is not shared by the individual in question. At worst this opinion is often shared by family members, friends, and society as a whole, creating a kind of trap or “Catch 22” for the individual.
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What we see when we attempt to use this stigmatizing and false description of “mental illness” is an array of human self expression which may be affected by, or resulting from, changes in environment, sleep patterns, physical activity, thought, perception, interaction with others, or any conglomeration of naturally occurring factors which can and do affect all of us as human beings.
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We are variable and complex. To lump any of us into “categories” of “mental illness” is a grave disservice to humanity.
Written by Joanna Gilman Hyde Blair
The Hawk Outpost 10:15am
I have risen to The Gleam Of Silver
aeons in the making
having set Its High
& clung to It
I will witness The World’s
turn-around
from the light of gold
to The Shower Of Silver —
from the day of the yellow metal
to The Night of The White
The Tomato-coloured Couch NOON
Gold is too warm
Silver is tarnished
like The Humanity
it represents
The Cold Truth
of believing in Our Selves
Our Bodies
Our Aspirations
–
*Ian Curtis, Joy Division
The Tomato-coloured Couch 4:10pm
Once, years ago, a Minister’s Husband
pronounced that when I painted
@ 23
I should have been 54
(NOTE: I will turn 54 on April 30th, 2015)
The Tomato-coloured Couch 6:11pm
I will tell You People
what kinda God I Am
& see if You can understand
Me —
I Am Serious
I Am NOT Serene
I am Factual, NOT based
on Faith —
based on Reason
as I Am Your Reason
for Schizophrenia
I Am The Light
of Silver,
NOT Gold
I have shown up
to stir This World up
from Its Legacy
of Bull Shit
It Is Time
for Me —
not to be believed
but to be KNOWN
I make My Announcement
Tonight
to establish The Fact
that The Human Mind
can be
Anything
–
*My Husband just gave Me the book So This Is Permanence
by Ian Curtis of Joy Division
The Tomato-coloured Couch 9:11pm
I Am The Lady In Black
and charcoal grey
Who likes to write
about Her Self
as The Transformation
The Growth
from a thirty-something
mental patient
badly misunderstood
tortuously disbelieved
turned
Figure
Of Prominence
in Her Local Community
and about to hit
at 54
The World At Large