Joanna Gilman Hyde

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Tag: existence

TONIGHT

The Tomato-coloured Couch 7:41pm

My Husband has given up

on trying to talk any sense

into Me.

He claims He no longer has any opinion

on what psychiatric diagnosis

might be responsible for My Skewered Reality.

He claims He will never speak again

of His Theory as to why I latched on

to a Little Scottish Doctor four days after

My Mother Died:

His Fifteen-year-old Theory that I had a symbiotic relationship

with My Mother, transferred onto The Little Man.

That My Husband may never discuss this subject again

should be a relief to Me

yet I find My Self in the foulest of moods.

Maybe I am getting

a menopausal period.

FUCK EVERYTHING

The Tomato-coloured Couch 5:55pm

He & I are Black Jesus

crawling out of The Depths

of filth & squalor

out of Lies & Untruths

clawing Our Way Out

of The World Today, Tonight

into The Sublime

of misunderstood Union

HOW DO I EXIST?

The Tomato-coloured Couch 3:56pm

I am The Little Girl —

stomach stuffed with Dipped Digestives

& Ginger Snaps

I am The Filthy Crow —

crazed & caged above A Cathedral-ceilinged

Living Room

I am The Entity Within —

pulsating to life

alerting My Gut, & so Me

to the impossibility

of Reconciliation

THE FIRST LIGHT

December 8, 2013 The Hawk West Desk Window 10:30pm

My First Summer With My First Husband

We Built a 10′ x 15′ Post-and-Beam House

The Thoreau House

On McNutt Island

Our First Night

We Shone an Oil Lamp

From Its Southern Window

and Went Outside To Look

THE FIRST DYING ROSE

The Hawk West Desk Window 10:44pm

The First Dying Rose

Taken From Eliza’s Bedroom Bouquet —

petals too limp to dry —

Its Russet Pink Still Enthralling —

Stands Upright In My Bathroom

waste basket

BACKWARD SUNSET

The Hawk Kitchen 4:50pm

This Evening I See

The Blush Of A New Day

To The North —

To The East A Front

Of Cloud

Is Moving Off

Out Over The Ocean

While My Stance

At My Sliding Glass Door

Ushers In

The Hope Of A Vacant Sky

To The West

CHOKING HAZARD

The Hawk West Desk Window 1:22pm

He can’t feed Himself

anymore

The Nurses have to spoon-feed

His Soft-food Diet

and water or apple juice

with a thickening agent

and change His Diaper

The Doctor says:

“There’s nothing We can do now

but make Him

comfortable”

BLACK LOVE

The Tomato-coloured Couch 6:54pm

I have A Black Love

searing My Heart

wrecking The Hearts

of Husbands —

My Black Love

is criticized by Women Friends

Who don’t get It:

My Devious Bond

seething within My Mind —

My Mind read like a tract

by My Horrible Little Lover

LARGER THAN LIFE

The Hawk Living Room 2:25pm

I hit the walls

square on

big bright screens

held Me, emblazoned

into the next century

and the next

on into the glorious replay

of The Shower Of Silver Lights

immortalized

BLACK FRIDAY

November 28th The Hawk West Desk Window 2:34pm

Black Jesus, He  a’Comin’

He gonna melt all dat snow

off dis Big Fat Snow Job

He gonna come outta hidin’

throw You a fast ball

He workin’ dis X Miss

He gotta girl fren

She be Him sometime

Dey works si’ by si’

Dey in love