I BESEECH YOU 7:22pm
“Stay With Me”
Stay With God
He Is All We Have Left
He Is Falling Away
&
Needs Us
He Is Male & Female
Dark & Light
He Lives For Us
In What’s Left Of Our Mind
He Is Us
10:48am
I look at the water dazzle
& think of what to write
I’ve been with Hunter
thirteen years
& not without a fight
–
11:00am
I want to climb into bed
like A Child
& hold onto My Daddy’s Head
from here to infinity
wild
OK ‘cuz now He’s dead
–
11:22am
A Butterfly has inspected
Me
I don’t know where She’ll
Land
perhaps on Someone Else’s
Lips
or in a Friendship’s
Hand
The Scattered Crumbs
of Lemon Loaf Cake
brush off My Black Lap
like a speckling of stars
& down The Cleavage
of My Tattoo Sweater
like Those sucked inside
My Very Blackest Hole
INDUCTING THE BLACK SWAN
I have seen The Post Card
from Tommy of Mexico
wilted on My Daughter’s Mirror
across from Her Bed
where I first met
The Boyfriend of Currency
–
Today I do The Laundry
Dressed In Black:
Black Tank, Black Capris
with My Silver Necklace
& Silver Hoops
–
Hunter, My Practising Husband/Doctor
may not go to Work
tomorrow
and I may not
see a friend
I remember lying in That February Sun
or was it March or April?
inadequate
with a step-sister who couldn’t help Me
no one could
I had abandoned My Self
to My Suffering
alleviated only by
bed-lying
couch-lying
& towel-lying on driveway stones
in the tepid sun
of 1997
gonna bomb dat RJ
shitting on His Rock
gonna lay up My Fire Ball
on dat Emergency Tag
gonna hit every car
every crib, zillions
bomb dis hole fuckin worl
I Was First In Line
For My Abortion
& I Claimed It:
Him/Her I Kept
Forever In My Shattered Heart
In The Next Room Over
From That Waiting Room
Full
Of Silent Women