Joanna Gilman Hyde

June 25th, 2025

The Hawk Deck

8:38 am

Yesterday Eye bought a six-pack

of Red Petunias on sale

(it was the last pack @ Wilson’s

& M(eye) 1st ever purchase

of Petunias 2 plant)

2 go in a squarish concrete planter

hidden under M(eye) Deck

& completely forgotten

(Eye have no recollection of how or where

such a relic came into M(eye) Possession)

so Eye put driveway gravel

into its non-draining bottom

& filled it half-way

w/ scrambled dirt from M(eye) vacant flower bed

(vacant except for Poppies now)

& carefully extracted the rooted red blooms

nestling each pod

carefully into the old concrete hold

& VOILA!!

It came 2 LIFE —

The Red of The Petunias

is not the same Red

as M(eye) plastic pot of Geraniums

set upon The Glass-topped Table

taking in direct morning sun —

The Petunias now gracing

the cat-scratched post by the steps

are an Orange-y Red

as opposed 2 The Fuscia Red

of The Geraniums —

so now Eye have 2 Shades

2 compare

& neither is Blood-red —

That Colour has no place

out here on M(eye) Weathered Deck

(while Eye steep M(eye) 3rd Cup of Tea

& wait for 9:11

2 drink It…)

June 20th, 2025

The Hawk Queen Bed

9:23 pm

This evening Eye visited

Astro’s Grave in Port Clyde

@ M(eye) Kids’ Grandparents’

House on the chopping block

where The Bones of Astro remain

from when He died suddenly

& was buried by Eliza

on October 13th, 2022 —

Eye have not visited

His Grave since —

(not w/ any meaning in M(eye) Heart)

& Eye wasn’t sure It could be found —

Butt Eliza knew where It was

& directed Me over the phone —

Eye found It smaller than Eye remembered —

w/ only a few stones

marking the pit She dug & filled

that fateful day almost 3 years ago

underneath a large spruce

which has since broken in half —

Eye think now Eye will place Astro’s black stone…

June 16, 2025

The Hawk Deck

7:24 am

Gully can be a picky eater —

@ least Eye know He’s not starving:

He doesn’t really like

The Ancient Canned Beans

from when Dr Blair

was convinced The World was ending —

Oh, Gully will go after Them

@ first,

& drag His Little White Bowl

closer 2 Him w His Giant Beak

(that’s cute)

butt when it comes 2 eating His Fill

He pecks @ Them,

1 @ a time —

He doesn’t gobble gobble —

as You might expect —

& leaves a layer behind,

maybe for later?

June 15, 2025

The Hawk Utility Room

5:05 am

Eye can feel The Healing Power

emanating from M(eye) Arms of God Chair

down in The Utility Room

of M(eye) Hawk House

where Eye have M(eye) Children visiting

& where Eye have realized

Eye am decidedly Comfortable

Friday, June 13th, 2025

The Hawk Deck

5:39 am

Eye have A Hefty Cooking Pot

The Colour of Blue Chiffon

given 2 Me decades ago

by M(eye) Late Brother

The Dear HTWH —

tried 2 cook A Stew

Yesterday

butt It stuck on The Bottom

as The Enamel was worn

AND The Bottom was newly bulbous

tip topping on M(eye) flat stove-top

so @ The Joking Suggestion

of Howard’s Niece Eliza

I’m 2 make A Planter

for M(eye) Deck —

so Eye think Eye will plant

Yellow Begonias for Him

& put The Lid into A Painting

June 8, 2025

Eliza’s Room

10:22 am

Here in The Little Lavender Room

Eye Never Painted

W/ M(eye) Aquarium Drawings

& Neapolitan Icecream Blocks

Depicting The Giant Grain Elevator

In St. John New Brunswick

Eye Never Painted,

Eye Have The Gub,

M(eye) Beautiful Daughter

Conceived In M(eye) Mind

& Born In A Tub

After The Death of M(eye) Mother

Over 32 years Ago —

She Drinks Her Coffee W/ Cream

Brought By Me

2 Her Salvation Army Quilt

Trimmed W/ Aqua Green

As She Puruses Her Phone

For Information On Her

Latest Thrift Store Windfall

June 8, 2025

The Hawk Kitchen Outpost

6:45 am

He Is M(eye) Pet

Butt He Has His Freedom

He Lives & Flies

Eye Know Not Where

& Comes 2 His Deck Every Morning

For Me 2 Admire

His Great Grey Wings

Tipped In Black

W/ White Underneath

& His “brrk brrk” for Breakfast —

Yesterday Eye Drove Past

A Gull Dead On The Hawk Road

& Hoped & Hoped It Was Not Mine

June 6, 2025

The Hawk Kitchen Outpost

8:15 am

Gully Speaks M(eye) Language:

Yesterday He Swooped @ Me 2 Get

His Giant Mouthful — Beakfull

of Bacon

Dangling From M(eye) Left Hand —

No Rail — No Nothing —

He Spied M(eye) Bacon & Got It All

& Today He Could Read M(eye) Mind —

“Bacon He Wants — Way More Than Beans”

So Out Eye Came

W/ 3 Cut Pieces

& They Were Gone —

No Training — No Nothing —

& It’s “BACON” — “brrk brrk” —

He Says Now

May 31st, 2025

The Hawk Queen Bed

3:35 am

Tonight Eye paid for a beer

for a man alone @ a bar

while Eye sat in an old leather chair

bereft of M(eye) Dream

of living out

on The East Side of McNutt’s Island

w/ The Man Eye Love (married)

who agreed w/ Me this morning

“Yes, I am established here”

as Eye gestured

2 His Tennis Court

situated on River Hills Golf Club

w/ His Wife

Eye happened 2 face today

inside the same cafe

Eye visited for lunch

w/ a verbose widow

who reminisced for the umteenth time

about her husband’s ghost stories

over her toasted Reuben

while Eye had Philly Beef

on a bun by itself

w/ no fries —

no nothing

May 29th, 2025

The Hawk Kitchen Outpost

10:28 am

M(eye) Grandmother’s Red Geraniums

Lined The Base of Her Livingroom Windows

In Jordan Bay

Throughout M(eye) Childhood

Eye Crunched & Smelled The Browning Leaves

& Put Them Back Into The Pots

By Her Instruction —

(At Least I Think

That’s What She Told Me 2 Do)

& Yesterday Evening

Eye Bought M(eye) 1st Grey-potted Geranium

2 Put On M(eye) Deck’s Glass-topped Table

— Eye Tied Around The Pot

A Wide Grey Bow

Retrieved This Morning

From M(eye) Sewing Box

Hand-painted By Grandmama