Last night Eye went out
with a boisterous fellow
fifteen years My Junior —
Eye treated Him to dinner:
braised chicken with maple sauce
& cranberries —
Eye had calamari & spinach salad
then We split
Our Dessert —
He had One Cherry
Eye had Two.
Today Eye am truly alone
set against the bracing wind
hatless
out here on my wide open beach
wiping my nose
on a gloved hand
Yesterday Eye saw the face
of My X close up
perhaps for the last time.
His eyes had faded
His skin was gaunt
His hair thin & straight —
Eye didn’t like him.
Today For Easter
Eye wrote on Facebook
“He Is Risen”
can be interpreted as
Morning Erection.
Eye dressed in floor-length silk
with stippled leopard print, pale
like the blonde fur coat, vintage
Eye wore with gold dangly earrings
given to My Mother by My Father
in Africa —
Eye only wished Eye could have crashed
My X’s Easter Dinner Party
& would have done so gleefully
if only Eye knew which trailer
He was in.
Why did Eye send out
one hundred and fifty
hand-made invitations
to a wedding Eye didn’t want?
Standing trembling by a girthy tree
in a Doctor’s back yard —
Eye have no memory
of taking His Hand —
Eye have no memory of Him
at the reception
as Eye sat beside My Cake
with no memory of taking a bite
while My Father served punch
at My Behest
Eye wake to write
of the boy with dirty neck
who put a dime
in my 4th grade desk
and tried to give me
one breathy kiss —
now to be invited
by an old old man
with teeth of brown
(if he has any left)
to accompany him
to The Lions Hall
Breakfast
Eye do not have a significant other
Eye do not have a partner, husband
boyfriend or lover
Eye have my friends male & female
my two living children, a dead brother
Eye do not have My Mother
and dreampt of Her in Jordan Bay
at The House Eye cleaned
over red Chinese rugs with a fire
where Eye decided to stay
Thirty years ago today
The Doctor came into M(eye) Room.
Eye asked Him What Had Happened To Me
and This is What He Said:
“You won’t find anything about This
in medical text books
but Some People
Who have had these kinds of Experiences
are called SEERS.”
M(eye) Shower of Silver Lights
can never be diminished
try as You might
2 say It came from sleep deprivation
four days after M(eye) Mother died —
say It was an hallucination
It came from M(eye) Brain —
butt the trigger?
Eye never could have drempt It up
not like Eye foresaw M(eye) Daughter
before She was conceived —
Eye could never have imagined
The Pulsating Spears
The Inexorable Vision
crashing down around Me
from a cathedral ceiling —
What Pray Tell
was Its Source??
For a dozen years
Eye possessed My Imperial Cat
Big & Black
But Where Is He Now?
Oh Eye know where His Body Lies —
He was buried by My Daughter Eliza
on the top of a hill
by a river bank
in Port Clyde —
but WHERE IS HE?
Joanna Gilman Hyde 