The Hawk Utility Room
January 5, 2025
3:45 am
What was so alluring
about Dr Blair?
Is This Poem
even worth writing?
(pause 2 get more tea)
Just slathered orange-smelling
hotel lotion on M(eye) Face
standing in M(eye) Newly Appreciated
Kitchen
lit w/ one Night Light…
The Hawk Utility Room
January 3, 2025
6:15 am
You could have been housed
here in M(eye) Living Gallery —
in “Peak’s Room”
decked w/ ART in The Basement
2 do Your Prolific Writing
2 work on Your Book titled
“PILLS”
(which Eye am eager 2 read)
butt You’re Caught In The Trap
of The Psychiatric Industry
which does not recognize
Your Talents
does not recognize
Your Exquisite Individuality
& has You pumped down
on 5 different medications
all of which Eye believe
are harming Your Wonderful Brain
in an effort 2 “stabilize”
Beautiful You —
You Who have lost Your Mother,
Your Grandmother, Cat & House
in Shelburne, The Place
You Loved, butt which turned
It’s back on You
because of Your “Psychiatric History”
— You R Stigmatized —
like Me, like M(eye) Brother
(The Late Howard Talbot Walden Hyde)
& Eye am left at Odds w/ The Program
which encases You Against Your Will —
Or R U Complacent?
How Can That Be?
Get Out Dear Luke — Get Out — —
The World Needs You —
Your Unique Creativity —
Your Sensitivity —
Your Wonderful Humour —
Your Enthusiasm for Life —
& EYE HEART U
L — U — K — E !!
The Hawk Queen Bed
January 3, 2025
4:26 am
The Only Dance
Eye Ever Had
w/ M(eye) X 2nd Husband
was Awkward At Best —
(We weren’t even married yet)
Appearing In Public
@ The Barrington Lions Hall
Hosted By The RCMP
@ Xmiss Time
w/ Me In The Dress of Midnight
(what did Eye ever do w/ That
Clingy Butt Loose Item of Black
Embossed w/ Drips & Globs
of Silver?)
The Floor Seemed 2 Bounce
& Eye Felt Fat —
Was Eye?
Eye Did Wear A Size 13 Pink Chiffon
when We were mistakenly married
August 14, 2004
@ a ceremony which was more than
Awkward —
everyone left the reception
@ Dr Blair’s Office
for Me to clean up
like a bad dream
— there was no honeymoon —
(supposedly because Dr Blair
was recovering from back surgery
2 weeks prior)
& Eye went along w/ All
This Bullshit —
riding on a horse The Next Morning
w/ M(eye) Attractive 2nd Cousin
from Jacksonville, Florida
Who must have wondered
What Was Wrong.
The Hawk Utility Room
January 1, 2025
7:00 am
The 1st & Last
Portrait of Jesus
Signed This Morning
& Hung w/ Great Care
Low 2 The Floor
of M(eye) Completed Heart
of M(eye) Show House
titled M(eye) Living Gallery —
glinted @ Me
as Eye Stood 2 Look
from The Center
of M(eye) New Space
from where The Ice Block Chandelier
is Destined 2 Hang Above —
The Very Top of Jesus’ Head
Held The Star
B(eye) M(eye) Artist’s Hand
2 Glint & Glare
w/ Precious Light
Eye Hold So Dear —
The Light of Perfection,
Grace, Hope, Dignity
emanating from The Final Piece
of M(eye) Creation
Here in This Blessed House
where Eye can Sit
or Stand
or Dance
or Crawl
in The Sublimity
of Life
w/ 3 Cats 2 talk 2 & pet
& Gully 2 feed & watch
w/ The Radio Broadcasting
Hardy French Songs
& A Room 2 Rise 2:
The Upstairs Corner Room
Where Eye Am Now
2 Finish This Poem
as God’s Dawn
Blankets M(eye) Morning Sky
in The Orange Light
of Promise.
The Hawk Utility Room
December 29, 2024
1:22 pm
Here Eye Sit
Free For The 1st Time
2 Lounge in M(eye) Forever Rocker —
The Faded Rose Upholstered Swivel Chair
thrown out by somebody
at least half a decade ago —
almost sold on Fb Marketplace —
almost given 2 Dr Blair’s Girlfriend —
situated Now inbetween 2 banks
of carefully reorganized Artwork
down in The Hawk Utility Room —
The New Room in M(eye) Living Gallery
moved into by Molly
next to The Furnace
on an adjacent chair
of fake dark leather
w/ matching foot stool —
recently scrubbed of its mold
from when it supported
half a decade of Studio Storage
buried w/ damp bug carci
in M(eye) Now Resurrected Work Space
2 rooms over.
Here in This Refurbished Utility Room
These 2 Chairs Create
M(eye) New Sitting Space
complete w/ Spiral-painted Side Tables
inside This Former Storage Room
where Eye can still hang Laundry
amidst walls decked w/ earlier Works
lit by 1 Naked L.E.D. Light Bulb
soon to be replaced
by M(eye) Newest Acquisition:
the circular Silver dangling rack
of half a dozen mini lights
encased in manufactured ice blocks
2 be hung in The Center:
The Heated Heart of M(eye) New Home!
Happy New Year!!
The Hawk Corner Room
December 27, 2024
10:40 am
M(eye) Frosty, Sparkling AM
W/ Gully & Jerome —
Gully Filled W /Bacon
& Jerome On M(eye) Lap
for The 1st Time In Years,
& for The 1st Time In Sublimity —
Filled Me W/ Grace Eye Had Never Known
Sitting ln M(eye) Grandmother’s Wrought Iron Chair
(The Chair Died In By Astro)
& Eye Am Left
No Longer Alone
Butt In The Company
of Sun, Warmth, Cats, Bird
& A Happy Meeeeeeeeeeeee
The Tomato-coloured Couch
December 24, 2024
7:25 am
Eye Live Now w/ The Gentilest of Cats:
Milk-mustached Molly sleeps @ M(eye) Head
& dabs M(eye) Face w/ 1 Paw
Claws Intact
while Moulan, The Beautiful Siamese
w/ Great Blue Eyes
had Her Claws ripped out
15 years ago
before She was dumped
off @ The Shakespeare House —
She likes The Warm Floor
in The Hallway
where Their Litter-less Box
gets cleaned every time They pee —
& then there’s Jerome,
named by Eliza —
The Lion of A Cat
w/ Great Sad Eyes,
Who Found His Way That 1st December
Eye was Here w/ Dr Blair —
Found His Way Through Snow & Ice —
all HE desires
is to be lovingly petted
& combed.
All 3 are resting now —
Jerome w/ His Paws crossed
on The Far End
of The Tomato-coloured Couch
Eye picked out on sale
from a local furniture store
14 years ago
when Dr Blair said Eye could have
Any Piece.
Moulan sits beside Me,
purring freely
& Eye’m not sure where Molly is,
though She has taken
to lounging in The Arms of God Chair
found on The Side of The Road
set up in The Utility Room
down in The Basement
which is almost ready
to be displayed
as 1 Formal Room of 14
Here in M(eye) Hawk House
Living Gallery
Open for 2025
2 Show M(eye) Art
M(eye) Ancestors’ Art
M(eye) Friends’ Art
& 2 Show How Eye Live
as A Single Woman
in A Perfect Kitchen for 1
in A Perfect Bedroom
w/ leftover graffiti
M(eye) Kids thought Eye should paint over
Eye Believe Eye Am Happy Here
Now in This Place of Staged Living
–Eye have not ventured out
through The Ice that came
The Last Night of Volunteering
@ Yarmouth Creatives
when Eye bought A Painting
by A New Friend
2 Hang in M(eye) Little Dining Room
butt neglected 2 pay for It.
It’s called Love Jacket —
an intricate construction
of delicately painted strips of paper
shaped to form a Michael Jackson Jacket
against a Background of Gold,
framed w/ more delicate paper strips
of Predominantly Pink —
& Eye Love It,
Hanging Above Eliza’s Greenish Swirl
from When She Was A Kid.
She and Her Brother Peak
& Peak’s Girlfriend Chantal
are in Campeche Mexico
now, for XMiss
& Peak’s 37th Birthday
on December 27th —
Eliza is not seeing enough
of Her Work-aholic Boyfriend Haime
equipt w/ His 11 Year Old Daughter
Eliza has yet 2 meet —
butt They are All Having A Good Time
as Eye can see in The Photos They Send
on Facebook —
The Social Contraption
Eye begrudgingly partake in
Here w/ The Cats Eye neglected
last summer
when Eye did not want to be
in This House —
& used any excuse Eye could find
2 Abandon My Place —
then Eye had no apparent purpose
& drove & drove to Friends
& Galleries & Volunteering & even
tried to get A Job
@ My Kids Reccomendation —
got 1 w/ The Tri-county Regional Centre for Education
& lost it 6 days later
when Eye wrote
supposedly revealing poems
about The Students Eye found Inspirational.
The day Eye was officially fired
(March 28th, 2024)
was The Day Dr Blair’s Cat Cami
Died in Her Condominium —
Died while Eye was being interviewed
as to why
a “breach of confidentiality”
would prohibit Me from working
w/ TCRCE ever again —
She was still Alive before The Video Call
@ 10:00am
& was completely Dead when It was over
20 minutes later.
Cami got put out in The Scrub Spruce
behind The Hawk House
entombed in Her Condo
as Eye may be someday
(if Eye die)
entombed by The Sea
like Annabelle Lee
Dead After Living
Here On The Hawk
In A Show House
built by neighbouring fishermen
as Someone’s Dream House
25 years ago, fatefully 2 House All
The Contents
of A Life of Creation
& The Lives of The Cats — Mumbo,
Molly, Moulan, Jerome, Swampie, Cami, Abby (briefly a foster cat Who died not wanting Me to leave Her Side)
& M(eye) Great Big Wonderful Astro —
All Who Have Joined Me
w/ M(eye) Pet Gull — Gully The 3rd
& His Various Companions & Offspring —
Here In Our Existence
of Spectacular Beauty, Desireous Longing
& Quest .
Merry XMiss — May It Be The Last
Joins The Ranks
of M(eye) Collection of Ghosts —
M(eye) Spirit Guides
Who Rule This House —
This Fake* Show House on The Hawk —
which Dr Blair couldn’t live in
which Eliza couldn’t live in —
butt M(eye) Big Beautiful Black Astro
Lived Here Happily for 12 Years
Until The Morning He Died
Out of The Blue
Couched in M(eye) Grandmother’s Wrought Iron Chair
in The Hawk Kitchen Outpost.
Eye Loved Him SOOOOOOO Much
& Now He is Here, in The Spirit World
which is M(eye) Lovely Sacred World
The Hawk Green Chair
December 17, 2024
The Day Astro Died In M(eye) Heart
was The Day Eliza’s Love Sign
Lit Up
after 5 Years of Silence
& Eye Organized All M(eye) Jewellery
in M(eye) Ensuite Bath
which Molly The Cat
snuggled into
when Eye wasn’t looking…
Yesterday when Eye went 2 The Bank
2 straighten out an e-transfer
for M(eye) Mother’s Book
McNutt’s Island Journal
Eye found an array
of delicate Black Broken Car Parts
which normally Eye would have collected
to incorporate into A Painting,
Butt Now Eye Am Dancing & Dancing
& Hanging My Art
in Every Corner
Joanna Gilman Hyde 