The Hawk Utility Room
January 5, 2025
3:45 am
What was so alluring
about Dr Blair?
Is This Poem
even worth writing?
(pause 2 get more tea)
Just slathered orange-smelling
hotel lotion on M(eye) Face
standing in M(eye) Newly Appreciated
Kitchen
lit w/ one Night Light…
The Hawk Utility Room
January 3, 2025
6:15 am
You could have been housed
here in M(eye) Living Gallery —
in “Peak’s Room”
decked w/ ART in The Basement
2 do Your Prolific Writing
2 work on Your Book titled
“PILLS”
(which Eye am eager 2 read)
butt You’re Caught In The Trap
of The Psychiatric Industry
which does not recognize
Your Talents
does not recognize
Your Exquisite Individuality
& has You pumped down
on 5 different medications
all of which Eye believe
are harming Your Wonderful Brain
in an effort 2 “stabilize”
Beautiful You —
You Who have lost Your Mother,
Your Grandmother, Cat & House
in Shelburne, The Place
You Loved, butt which turned
It’s back on You
because of Your “Psychiatric History”
— You R Stigmatized —
like Me, like M(eye) Brother
(The Late Howard Talbot Walden Hyde)
& Eye am left at Odds w/ The Program
which encases You Against Your Will —
Or R U Complacent?
How Can That Be?
Get Out Dear Luke — Get Out — —
The World Needs You —
Your Unique Creativity —
Your Sensitivity —
Your Wonderful Humour —
Your Enthusiasm for Life —
& EYE HEART U
L — U — K — E !!
The Hawk Queen Bed
January 3, 2025
4:26 am
The Only Dance
Eye Ever Had
w/ M(eye) X 2nd Husband
was Awkward At Best —
(We weren’t even married yet)
Appearing In Public
@ The Barrington Lions Hall
Hosted By The RCMP
@ Xmiss Time
w/ Me In The Dress of Midnight
(what did Eye ever do w/ That
Clingy Butt Loose Item of Black
Embossed w/ Drips & Globs
of Silver?)
The Floor Seemed 2 Bounce
& Eye Felt Fat —
Was Eye?
Eye Did Wear A Size 13 Pink Chiffon
when We were mistakenly married
August 14, 2004
@ a ceremony which was more than
Awkward —
everyone left the reception
@ Dr Blair’s Office
for Me to clean up
like a bad dream
— there was no honeymoon —
(supposedly because Dr Blair
was recovering from back surgery
2 weeks prior)
& Eye went along w/ All
This Bullshit —
riding on a horse The Next Morning
w/ M(eye) Attractive 2nd Cousin
from Jacksonville, Florida
Who must have wondered
What Was Wrong.
The Hawk Utility Room
January 1, 2025
7:00 am
The 1st & Last
Portrait of Jesus
Signed This Morning
& Hung w/ Great Care
Low 2 The Floor
of M(eye) Completed Heart
of M(eye) Show House
titled M(eye) Living Gallery —
glinted @ Me
as Eye Stood 2 Look
from The Center
of M(eye) New Space
from where The Ice Block Chandelier
is Destined 2 Hang Above —
The Very Top of Jesus’ Head
Held The Star
B(eye) M(eye) Artist’s Hand
2 Glint & Glare
w/ Precious Light
Eye Hold So Dear —
The Light of Perfection,
Grace, Hope, Dignity
emanating from The Final Piece
of M(eye) Creation
Here in This Blessed House
where Eye can Sit
or Stand
or Dance
or Crawl
in The Sublimity
of Life
w/ 3 Cats 2 talk 2 & pet
& Gully 2 feed & watch
w/ The Radio Broadcasting
Hardy French Songs
& A Room 2 Rise 2:
The Upstairs Corner Room
Where Eye Am Now
2 Finish This Poem
as God’s Dawn
Blankets M(eye) Morning Sky
in The Orange Light
of Promise.
Joanna Gilman Hyde 