The Hawk Deck
May 29, 2024
8:00 am
This Morning Eye Set Out
M(eye) Glass Top Table
Under The Heralding of The Jay
So Eye Can Eat M(eye) Breakfast Here
On The Deck
On M(eye) Singular Folding Chair
& Drink M(eye) Tea
The Hawk West Window
May 15, 2024
9:36 am
Eye Wept & Wept
Eye Painted & Eye Wept
Eye Wrote Poems & Eye Wept
Eye Cr(eye)ed & Wept
& Eye Prayed
Eye L(eye)ned M(eye) Mouth
w/ Lemon Cream
2 Smooth Out The L(eye)nes
Of Grief
Follow up poem 2 What Eye Am
The Hawk West Window
May 15, 2024
9:00 am
Eye Have Been A Death Doula
All M(eye) L(eye)fe
& Didn’t Know It
Until Now.
When Eye Was 4
Heffelump D(eye)d
& Eye Questioned
Where Did He Go?
Did He Turn In2 Air?
When M(eye) Big Tom Cat D(eye)d
In 1977
Eye Thought He Had Been Reincarnated
In2 A Litter of Dark & Dusty Kittens
Next Door.
Then M(eye) Mother D(eye)d In 1993
& M(eye) L(eye)fe Turned Ups(eye) Down
Butt Eye Witnessed Her Death
& Handled Her Cremation
& Wrote About The Experience
In M(eye) Book So Long Sam —
When Abby The Foster Cat Was D(eye)ing
Eye Stayed B(eye) Her S(eye)de
& Only Got Up 2 Go 2 The Bathroom
Whereupon She Mewed Outloud
For Me Not 2 Leave Her.
A Week Ago Eye Held A Vigil
For A Dear D(eye)ing Lady
In Her Palliative Care Room
& Found M(eye) Calling.
The Hawk West Window
May 23, 2024
8:50 am
Eye Will Never Go Back
2 The Island House of M(eye) Mother:
Her Little Red House On The West Side
of McNutt’s Island In Shelburne Harbour.
After Her Death Over 30 Years Ago
Eye Sold It 2 A Couple of Methodists
Who Rearranged The Interior
Making A Big Room Downstairs
Out of M(eye) Off-The-Kitchen Bedroom
Out of The Graceful Livingroom
w/ Its Mahogany Pump Organ
w/ Arms For Oil Lamps.
M(eye) Brother’s Narrow Back Bedroom
Went Too
w/ Its Narrow Iron & Brass Bed
He Named “The King’s Bed.”
Eye Will Never Go Back
2 The Guest Wing
Where M(eye) Mother Slept
w/ Its Dutch Door Opening
Its Top Half 2 The Back Stone Wall
& Locust Tree Where We 1st Showered
w/ The Pull-cord Bucket From Africa.
The Methodists Took Out The Dutch Door
& The Salmon-coloured Wood Panels
Raising The Ceiling 2 The Rafters.
They Got Rid of The Nifty Shower Room
w/ Its Slatted Floor For The Pull-cord Bucket
& A Triangular Shelf
For Basin & Pitcher
Building Instead A Standard Bathroom
On The Opposite Side of The Wing.
The Kitchen Was Plumbed
w/ A New Kitchen Sink
Minus The Sequential Wood Stoves
Named Master Climax
& Prizer Regal.
Eye Will Never Go Back
2 The Midnight Suppers
& Kemex-perked Coffee
In The Mornings
w/ The Sun Shining Through
M(eye) Eastern Bedroom Window
In M(eye) Mother’s Little Red House
Painted Now Lupine Blue.
The Hawk Queen Bed
May 12, 2024
9:40 pm
Today As Eye Washed
The Windows of N(eye) Portico
Eye Heard The Willet —
The Sound of Jordan Bay —
& Eye Thought
This Is Why Eye Am Here
Now On Cape Island
B(eye) M(eye) Self
w/ 3 Cats Outs(eye)de
In This Month of May
Roseway Hospital, Shelburne, NS
May 7, 2024
6:45 am
There Stands A Tree
Outside The Hospital Window
w/ A Double Trunk of Pine.
Its Conical Shape
Rem(eye)nds Me of A Leaf
w/ Branches As Veins
& Eye Am Free
2 Stare At It
For As Long As Eye Want.
The Pr(eye)mary Nurse,
A Young Asian Man,
Told Me There Are No
Visitation Restrictions
& Eye Am Free
2 Stay For As Long As Eye Want.
Water, The Elixer of L(eye)fe,
Is Being Taken B(eye) Delicate Sips
B(eye) M(eye) D(eye)ing Lady
Wh(eye)le Eye Drink
Tea After Tea
& A Decaf Brought In
B(eye) A Friend.
Roseway Hospital, Shelburne, NS
May 7, 2024
4:28 am
2 Keep People Al(eye)ve
Or At Least Comfortable
We Have EYE-V
Catheter Bags
Adjustable Jelly Beds
Clocks
& Nurses’ Buttons.
A Fan Is On Low
Saying “Cool Works” —
It’s 4:30 In The Morning
On This Her D(eye)ing Day —
or is it?
& Eye Have Made
My Second Cup
of Tea.
Roseway Hospital, Shelburne, NS
May 7, 2024
3:40 am
Eye Am Literally
Waiting
For Someone Dear 2 D(eye).
Eye Am Checking
Her Breathing —
Eye Am Checking
Her Faint Motion
of Perhaps One Hand
Raised
Butt That Was Oh,
Over 4 Hours Ago —
When Eye Held It.
Roseway Hospital, Shelburne, NS
May 6, 2024
6:15 pm
M(eye) Whole L(eye)fe
Has Brought Me Here
2 The Death
of A D(eye)ing Lady
Who Showed Me Such K(eye)ndness
Along w/ Her Children —
All Talented
w/ Carving Birds & Making Dolls —
& So Eye Stand 2 Wr(eye)te
In Her Palliative Care
Bes(eye)de Her Old Crysanthimums
& Pink Carnations
2 Wr(eye)te of M(eye) Fondness
For Her Greatness
As She Is An Example 2 Me
of Wh(eye) Eye Have Forged
Loving Relationships
w/ Elderly Ladies
of Cape Sable (Eye)sland
Nova Scotia:
Yesterday When Eye Visited Her
She Said F(eye)nal Words:
“I Will Miss You, Joanna,”
Roseway Hospital,Shelburne, NS
May 6, 2024
Today @ Roseway
Eye Witnessed A Crow
Out On The Rocks of The Roof
Hoarding Some Food
In A Way Eye Have Never Seen:
1st He Walked Around A Little
w/ A Piece of Maybe Pizza Crust
& Tore Off A Chunk
& Carried It 2 A Corner
& Buried It.
He Repeated This Process
w/ 2 Other Tearings
& Stashed Them
Carefully In Other Regions
of The Expansive Barren.
Then Eye Returned
2 Tend 2 M(eye) D(eye)ing Lady
& The Crow Flew Off, Presumably
So Eye Asked M(eye) Self —
Where Did That Crow Go?
Joanna Gilman Hyde 