Joanna Gilman Hyde

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Month: October, 2013

THE PSYCHIATRIST’S PRAYER

The Tomato-coloured Couch 2:22pm

Once I wore black

for My Favourite Psychiatrist

Jesus Black — black velour sling pants

black push-up bra

briefly hidden by a golden tee

which said “Trust In The Lloyd

My FP asked if I had made the slogan

I told Him, “No, it came from a movie”

and tore off The Tee

as I sat on an unforgiving mattress

on the floor

of The TQ Room — not a room — an unforgiving space

euphemistically named The Therapeutic Quiet Room

— My hair was longer then

blonder

I might have looked wild —

My Tall Psychiatrist

stood above Me

and looked at the ceiling

and said what I presume

was a prayer

I don’t even know

why He was in there

and I certainly do not know why I was

Note: related passage in The Script

https://joannagilmanhyde.wordpress.com/?s=The+Script

THE WISH

The Hawk Deck 11:22am

That same spot of Ocean

where I saw The Sun come up

this morning

is vacant now

beyond the scrub spruce —

I cling to It

as one might a heavenly body

in twilight

& perhaps even

say a wish

THE PRAYER

The Tomato-coloured Couch 4:45pm

I have delivered A Prayer

— The First I’ve Ever Written —

through The Sacred Postal Service

but I don’t know how

My Children’s Grandfather

will receive It

7:20am GREETING

The Hawk Window Seat 8:30am

I watched for The sun

along the glowing horizon

& when It sparked, It bounced

& shouted out, “Good Morning!”

WATERCOLOUR SUNSET

The Hawk West Desk Window 7:12pm

I painted once

a watercolour sunset

& wrote on the back

“This could be a cover

for The New Yorker

I gave it to My First Husband

Who put it in His Parents’ attic

Yet tonight I saw My Painting

in real life

out My West Desk Window

in the sky beyond The Cape

edged below by the silhouetted dunes

bathed above by the astonishing pink

I had tried to capture

22nd ANNIVERSARY

The Hawk Deck 10:40am

22nd Anniversary of My Mother’s Brain Tumour Diagnosis

I live in a place

where women wear Their Robes

until noon

where cats meander across

other people’s lawns

where The Fall Sun

allows You a final stipend

of sitting on The Deck

where You reflect on a past

You know now

is gone

 

TEENAGER’S LAMENT

The Hawk West Desk Window 7:38am

A Teenager’s Lament to His Mother:

“You had Me believe in Santa Claus

You had Me believe in The Easter Bunny

Now You ask Me to believe in God?”

EMBRYONIC ABSORPTION

The Hawk Dining Room 3:53pm

I rest My Chin

in The Child’s Posture

between My Fists

I contemplate The Greyness

of My Ocean

It’s All Mine

nobody

can steal It

away

I

will

hold

It

to

Me

within My Veins

within My Flesh

within My Insides

I Am The Salt

I Am The Water

I Am Here

in The Child’s Stance

GOVERNMENT SHUT DOWN

The Hawk West Desk Window 10:22am

I am wearing the colour of vulnerability

is it still the colour of surrender?

I stand in the bathroom mirror

& look at My Self — Dual Citizen

a representative of North America

in LL Bean Blue Jeans

& white sweat shirt

Grey Star at My Neck

Diamond Rings blaze on both My Hands

What do I stand for?

Canadian/US Citizen

on guard

for

Thee