Joanna Gilman Hyde

"Good Morning, World!"

Month: December, 2012

JOANNA’S CHRISTMAS LIST

The West Desk Window 2:45pm

Sometimes a Candy Cane

is not just a Candy Cane.

HO HO HO is backwards.

What can you think of that’s snowy white

& feels like a weather bomb?

What’s an empty, limp stocking

which miraculously gets filled?

The colour red means stop —

green means go.

What’s a triangular fir tree

next to  an open hearth —

and where does that chimney go anyway?

A Christmas Wreath, a broken circle, represents a fertilized egg.

A baby in a manger —

Jesus was born on the wrong side of the tracks.

SANTATOWN

The Tomato-coloured Couch 11:11am

The President of The United States

read The List

The Roll Call

of names like

Jessica, Caroline

Noah, Jack & Madeline

He capped His Speech

with The Twenty Children

Who won’t be

on Santa’s List

ever again —

through the violent actions of an unknown gunman

They have been spared

Santa’s meddling hand

Santa’s sly whispers

spared from a society’s — what?

blind celebration?

from Society Itself?

 

HAVEN

The Hawk Hallway 5:10pm

Why turn to an opalescent sky

for the answer to Our Eternal Question

WHY?

Why renounce My American Citizenship

fearful of being found out

as a culprit of 911

as a proud New Canadian since 1995

living in Peace & Security

with no plans to go back

to visit friends & relatives

in The Beleaguered US of A?

Why watch CNN

to see Obama

commiserate

with the survivors

of fallen children?

Why live next door

to a massive giant

of woe & destruction

for the sake of a spit of sand

where I may walk in private?

Why?

Because I ended up here —

is it that simple?

Because I had The Dream

of “Being A Famous Artist

Living In Nova Scotia”

where now I am tied

to My Property

Progeny

One or Two Husbands —

where is My Dream taking Me Now?

It’s A Haven

With Glass Walls

MY HOUSECLEANING POEM

The Hawk Kitchen Noon

I take off My Quartz Crystal Question Mark Ring

to put on a dusting mitt for The Staircase

— the only part of The House I dust

with any regularity —

& contemplate The Particles

thereupon:

The Cat Hairs mingled with unidentifiable fibres

small elements of organic matter — probably off shoes

The Shallow White Film attributable to dead skin cells

accumulating

as I sweep down Twelve Red Steps

whereupon

lost I become in A Cosmos

of underhanded

trickery

knowing I will repeat the process

ad infinitum

BREAKTHROUGH

The Hawk Queen Bed 9:22am

I PUSHED THE CERAMIC HEAD

I MADE

OF A DARK HAIRED LADY

HELD UP IN A DREAM

TO THE BACK SIDE OF A THIN OLD GYP-ROCK WALL

I PUSHED HER FRONTAL FEATURES FIRST

ALL THE WAY THROUGH

TO HER INTRICATE HAIR LINE

SO THAT THE PATTERN OF HER FACE

EMERGED FROM THE CRUMBLE

ON THE OTHER SIDE

WHERE MY DAUGHTER WAS STANDING

TO RECEIVE HER

INTACT

ADULTHOOD

The Hawk Kitchen 9:14am

Can You be In Love with The Spirit

of a Child?

What stops You as He

approaches 25 years of age

& You finally decide

to throw out

His First Bathtub Toy

set on a block of concrete

for the garbage men to pick up?

CLUE

The Hawk West Desk Window 9:38pm

I am wearing My Pro-Life Underwear

The Pair Jim Chandler* couldn’t guess

the colour of

when My Views were over 750

–They’re over 1,800 Tonight —

I have written to DHW

“I no longer see My Progeny

as Children”

* Child Psychiatrist

THE HAWK KITCHEN 3:37pm

In The Sun Today

I Walked The Pattern Of The Waves

& Looked Across The Sand

To Sea The Breakers

But To Hear Their Over-turnings Muffled

Out Of Reach Of The Wind

Rippling The Clouds Outside

My Kitchen Window

When I Got Home

!BOING!

The Hawk Bathroom 2:22pm

Joanna’s Sleep Regimen:

Lithium Carbonate 300 mg

take 2 capsules @ bedtime

Synthroid 50 mcg

take 1 tablet once a day

Nova-Olanzapine 10 mg

take 1 tablet @ bedtime

Apo-Lorazepam 1 mg

take 1 tablet as needed*

* I have begun taking

this anxiolytic (Ativan) regularly @ bedtime

& IT HAS ROUNDED OUT

MY SLEEP

I NO LONGER WAKE UP EARLY

WITH JOLTS OF ANXIETY

I ATTRIBUTE THE ABOVE PRESCRIPTIONS

TO MY SLEEP RESTORATION

AND THUS

TO MY OVERALL WELL-BEING

THE HAWK KITCHEN 11:06am

What makes You look up

in a moment

to see three Jays in the scraggly apple

& then in that moment

to see Them fly off?